30 Dec 14 ( winter break rant)

So I've been "home" for a week and a half I think. And I honestly think I miss college. I mean I feel all my close friends I thought I had here back home were still me friends but that doesn't seem to be the case. I guess I'm just a bit hurt that the says that after high school you lose all of you friends has come true. Don't get me wrong we still kind of talk and we went out together as soon as I got here but it was just so awkward and felt forced. Like we all were forced to be there I didn't like. And today I had to hear from a friend that my so called best friend got engaged 30mins ago. Ok find she probably to excited and for got but I'm supposed to be her best friend and I had to txt her. Like dude am I over reacting? I'm just a little bit over this. I'm not liking it here anymore that I was liking it at college. Ugggg I'm in a dilemma. Life is hard and I do t feel like I have anyone to rant to so fuck it I'll just put it on here not like anyone really reads this. 

09 Dec 14 Finals!!! more ranting

What's up y'all I haven't posted in a bit. So its the last week of the fall semester in my university which means shit food, shit sleep schedules and shit hours on test days. So far I've taken 3 finals. I for sure pass 1 of those I'm not too sure on the others and i still have 3 more take yay me -note sarcasm- . my roommates being a little brat about missing her ONLINE final i repeat ONLINE final. who does that its ONLINE her excuse is that she was studying and the test didn't have an end date. I told her maybe she should've done it as soon as it was posted so she can be on the safe side and not had missed it now look at her.I mean if you have to take in ONLINE final I'm pretty sure your professor expects you to use your notes. And plus she was not studying all week I know she studied yesterday for like an hour and this morning when her professor texted her that she failed the course she wants to turn on the water workers. Nah I do not have time for that I have shit of my own to worry about. I told her straight up that if I was her teacher I won't let her take it. It was up for a whole week come on! I may be being a major bitch but she's always putting me down as if my shit isn't important or hard. Like she sees me studying all night and has the nerve to tell me that she doesn't study and still has better grades then me. Like bitch we're not even in the same major and she's in a fig and all her classmates are passing meaning that they are a bit easier than my courses if all most everybody is passing but her because she barley even goes to class, and she has all the same people in her classes so if she misses something she can just as them for the answers. I rarely have the same people in my class so if i miss something and office hour and closed I'm screwed.

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Okay that is enough of my bitching but on the cool she can be pretty chill but most of the time its all about her and if it's not she throws a fit i blame her parents they babied her to much if only they knew half the stuff she does. She ain't the saint they think she is. lmao I'm still bitching its cause she really got me upset. Killing my good vibes. I'm gonna get off now before I start all over again on my ranting. So to who ever reads these thanks again I know there's a few of y'all out there. bye

20Nov14 Awkward

So on Halloween I went out to dinner with my roommates friend and a friend of his, it kinda looked like a double date but it wasnt. But anyways he paid my food and that was that. Today while getting my lunch from the dinning hall he sits next to me and my friend. Idk if he remembers its me bc I was dress in my chola costume that night and I looked a bit different but I couldn't remember his name so I tried avoiding eye contact. But apparently my friend knows him and ingages in our conversation. So it got more awkward after she tells me they had a thing. They he left and that's that. Lol I still know his name. But I know he's a kicker on the university's football team 😂 

07 Nov 14 (12:54am)

Long time since I've posted here. So I'm supposed to be studying for my animal science quiz but I can't really do anything with the lights off and this tiny fuck ass lamp of mine. My roommate goes to sleep early and claims to be a heavy sleeper but cant sleep with the light on. (Which she has before). And she complains about having to wake up early but like bitch you go to sleep at 9ish and get up at 5am that's a good 7hrs. Other people go to sleep at 3am because of studying and wake up at 6:30am to finish homework and then shower for their 8am class. (Me). I mean do you and I'll do me but don't complain about having to wake up early if you get more than 5hrs of sleep and you don't even study or do your homework. Ok well that was my rant of the late/early night/day. I'm gonna go back to studying in the lame ass lighting and ruin my eye sight from stressing then to be able to read my notes.... Ok that whole other rant night/morning have good day/night what ever is suitable for you. 

Saturday 20 Sept 14 (1:40am)

Havent posted in a week or so. Let me tell you shit has gone down hill. Ok it's not that bad compared to other people's circumstances. But shit man to me right now my life isn't what I thought it would be . Yo I think I'm failing my intro to animal science class and every other class. I came home this weekend to find out that my room is no longer my room. My mother gave it to her son after I told her when she asked that I wasn't OK with it weeks before. So I'm kinda bummed. (currently crashing in my sister's spare room) And when I informed my "friends" I was in town they were acting mad weird. Over all I think I made a mistake coming back home. I thought I missed it because I'm an outsider  at school but I'm an outsider here as well. Idk. I'm just here for the weekend so I'll be gone soon. But I really wish it wasn't  like it is now. I'm not sure if I'm making any sense but yeah. Ima just cry myself to sleep. That's another thing I'm currently coming down with a cold so it's easier to hide my discomfort because I can just blame it on that and my parents are oblivious to me and my feeling they bought that bullshit excuse. So yeah that's my day / night  for ya. I'm now really going to sleep. Night to whoever had come across my stupid blog of my complaining which I shouldn't be but yeah peace and love to everyone reading this which is probably no one. 

10 Sept 14 (11:50pm)

I only have two classes today because my third class I just have to take a test. I'm kinda hungry but I only have enough swipes on my meal plan to last me for the rest of the week before they restart. The struggles of getting a cheap meal plan to not have to much debt. I mean I got a Mac and cheese cup from my food stash. Which isn't a stash no more because I have no more food. But yeah I need to get to the store ASAP. I just need to see who will give me a ride. Oh yeah I also don't have a car. I'm just a mess. 

Y'all 09 Sept 14 (9:30pm)

This just happen I got to "meet" Nev. He came to my university. I was fangirling to the MAX. He was funny and not boring. Usually when I sit through a 50 mintue lecture I can't stand it, but I sat there the whole time and then I stood in a line to get my book signed and get a picture with him. So from 6:30-9:30pm.  He's so nice. I blanked I couldnt bring words out of my mouth. (Star stund). Like he's Bae 💍.  There were so many people in line and he stayed all the way to til the end (I think till 11pm). But I hadn't plan on going. I went because I had met some people in my bio lab who HAD  to go for a class and who was I to pass up a time to hang out with actually people and not be stuck in my room like always ( I have trouble making friends.) Yeah actually I kinda had also planned on going to rush a service organization tonight ( it's like a sorority but with more community service events). But come on how many times does NEV host of MTV's catfish. Your celeb crush come to your campus to lecture and have a book signing and it's free. I'm mean I can always rush next semester or next year the organization is always gonna be at school ; BAE isn't. It was worth the wait in line. Best day in college by far.