30 Dec 14 ( winter break rant)

So I've been "home" for a week and a half I think. And I honestly think I miss college. I mean I feel all my close friends I thought I had here back home were still me friends but that doesn't seem to be the case. I guess I'm just a bit hurt that the says that after high school you lose all of you friends has come true. Don't get me wrong we still kind of talk and we went out together as soon as I got here but it was just so awkward and felt forced. Like we all were forced to be there I didn't like. And today I had to hear from a friend that my so called best friend got engaged 30mins ago. Ok find she probably to excited and for got but I'm supposed to be her best friend and I had to txt her. Like dude am I over reacting? I'm just a little bit over this. I'm not liking it here anymore that I was liking it at college. Ugggg I'm in a dilemma. Life is hard and I do t feel like I have anyone to rant to so fuck it I'll just put it on here not like anyone really reads this. 

07 Nov 14 (12:54am)

Long time since I've posted here. So I'm supposed to be studying for my animal science quiz but I can't really do anything with the lights off and this tiny fuck ass lamp of mine. My roommate goes to sleep early and claims to be a heavy sleeper but cant sleep with the light on. (Which she has before). And she complains about having to wake up early but like bitch you go to sleep at 9ish and get up at 5am that's a good 7hrs. Other people go to sleep at 3am because of studying and wake up at 6:30am to finish homework and then shower for their 8am class. (Me). I mean do you and I'll do me but don't complain about having to wake up early if you get more than 5hrs of sleep and you don't even study or do your homework. Ok well that was my rant of the late/early night/day. I'm gonna go back to studying in the lame ass lighting and ruin my eye sight from stressing then to be able to read my notes.... Ok that whole other rant night/morning have good day/night what ever is suitable for you.